the above is one of the comments i recieved to my journal,
let me explain it a little.. for the non indian audience,
I am a mallu chappy(a malayalee, frm the state of kerala, mallu chuppies are 'supposed'/shoud be funny... if not?...)
this was written by an indian girl, im not sure whether she is a malayalee, anyway.. she wants mt to see the funy side of life..
she wonders wheter i am always like this,
writing about, pain, sex, putdown, agonies, starvation, poverty... hehehehehe... isnt there an other side of life..
i am askign myself.
friends, you know I was thinking about the comment.. form a post colonial context. My indian friends, who have been outside, means who have left third world for a first world, they have really grappled for a life out there and succeeded,
they talk about 'hanging out', for them, murky indian politic is, 'fucking shit'
They dont want to adress their, 'real-self' you know, cos it has an odour od sweat that you csant stand,
Its easier for me to fill my blog daily with 'mallu jokes' which i personally enjoy that writing this 'sentimental stuff' but still i have to adress the nightside of my self, my existence, and the people and life around me.
I AM NOT THE FOLLOWING THINGS,
I am a contented happy malayalee boy, who always does his morning prayer and then recite the indian national anthem
I am a proud Indian, who would feel depressed if India loses to pakistan in cricket, and if I couldnt get hold of a national flag on Independence day
I am a happy Indian, who works hard, then go hanging out, and then attend 'Art Of Living' by SRI SRI rAvishankar and be a missionary of Sudarshana CHakra.
you know Indian woman, she has the legacy of Jhansi rani... I speak to my fellow girls and then voyeur the aunty next door washing her clothes and mastrubate(I voyeur and mastrubate with out the jhansi Rani episode)
I speak of the Great Indian tradition in volumes, and sigh over the loss of it... over a bottle of coke(i drink coke with out the tradition episode, even though I am Anticocacola, I have written pages after pages against them)
I fear about Indian generation losing there roots for western culture
I am a nationalist
I am a communist
I love A B Vajpayee
I love Indira Gandhi
My motto is is character is lost everythign is lost
I am for multinational capitalism
I hate vulgar, hard porn
i love erotica
I dont believe in superstetions.
there are a strong list.. if intersted ask me....
if not just ignore me